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Devouring, digestion and cocoreç
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Devouring, digestion and cocoreç

"Trains pulled by steam locomotives ran incessantly in and out of the main hall, which was like a vessel for these powerful machines - a kind of mechanical coitus," says Eva Fàbregas in an interview about the exhibition. In this industrial monument called Hamburger Bahnhof, which the artist can imagine as a "giant mouth" or "womb", she has put something organic, something amorphous, which is a contradiction, because nothing here is shapeless and without form. The preoccupation with the corporeal forces itself upon us: Tubers, spherical tubes and balloon chains everywhere, writhing forms in elastic fabric. Construction foam? Flower pollen? Marshmallows? The mustard-yellow, pink and lilac-colored lycra bags hang from the ceiling like snot and slime, winding around steel beams and reaching for me with nubby tentacles. A museum employee says that one visitor is eaten and digested every day.

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"I do ask myself: why am I turning people in?"
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"I do ask myself: why am I turning people in?"

Jade carefully picks up a pink silicone cake mold, which is modeled on a cerebral hemisphere. Jade carefully scrapes out a thin white layer and collects it in a small bottle. Then we turn on the microphone and ask what Jade is doing and why :) With this audio series, we'd like to introduce you to people who can take a leaf out of our book when it comes to the question: What do you actually do in a Playspace? After all, they come with many challenges. How do I get in touch with people? What should I pack for this? Should I plan something or spontaneously see what works? We were lucky enough with Jade...

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Workshopsexuality. Part I
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Workshopsexuality. Part I

Partnered sexuality works differently to casual hook-up sexuality. It's a distinction that can help you tackle relationship problems and save yourself frustration if you think that things should be just as fiery in bed with your spouse after a visit to Ikea as they are with a mysterious guy you drag out of a jazz bar. Similarly, adolescent sexuality works differently to adult sexuality. A distinction that helps you to adapt your sex education knowledge to the new phase of life and save yourself stress if you think that body parts should erect and lubricate just as easily as they do when you're...

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Workshopsexuality. Part II
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Workshopsexuality. Part II

We continue with an attempt to find out how workshop sexuality differs from other sexualities. In Part I, we stopped at the observation that workshops are didactically organized, follow a plan and prescribe certain rules and manners. This is why the assertion that workshops break social norms is only partially true. As is so often the case, breaking norms does not simply go hand in hand with freedom from norms, but with a new norm. Normal in the sense of "common" in our society is, for example, that sex is largely non-verbal. And this doesn't mean a lack of dirty talk, but an honest and respectful exchange about what you like and what you don't like. In sex-positive workshops, on the other hand...

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Workshopsexuality. Part III
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Workshopsexuality. Part III

At the Institute for Cultural Inquiry in Berlin in 2021, there was a conference called "The Workshop - Investigations Into an Artistic-Political Format", the contents of which are wonderfully illuminating for the inherent logic of sex-positive workshops and their influence on a certain understanding of sexuality. Presentations were dedicated to all the beautiful promises of workshop culture: solution-oriented cooperation, solidarity and supportive sharing of resources and knowledge, crazy possibilities of consciousness-expanding experiences through meditation exercises, psychological self-observation techniques, improvisation or organ experiments... According to the conference description, workshops are considered to be "optimally connectable and almost universally applicable...

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Workshopsexuality. Part IV
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Workshopsexuality. Part IV

In the last blog post, reference was made to the cultural studies conference "The Workshop - Investigations Into an Artistic-Political Format" at ici Berlin, where workshops were also examined for their decidedly artistic-performative aspects. Sex-positive workshops are also a kind of performance or social sculpture that follow choreographies. Many theater terms fit in here: a certain togetherness is rehearsed, skills are practiced, rituals are performed. This forms workshop sexuality as an ars erotica. It doesn't have to be...

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Tantric massage: Decluttering, Recluttering & Beyond - A TWAPOS experience
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Tantric massage: Decluttering, Recluttering & Beyond - A TWAPOS experience

so, here i am now: lying naked in the sun under an apple tree by the pool. thinking about sex & revolution. all i hear is the wind in the trees & birdsong, occasionally some donkey or peacock announce their existence. & there comes the happy puppy, enthusiastically biting me in the nipple - again. this is much nicer than i thought...

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Salt With A Pinch Of Tantra
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Salt With A Pinch Of Tantra

"It's like opening a Pandora's box" - is how one participant described her experience at our retreat TANTRA WITH A PINCH OF SALT. The things that come to the surface once one refuses to take things for granted. Like when I participated in my first Tantra workshops I just took for granted what the teachers told me... For example that we are dealing with authentic tantric practices by doing massages. And then at our retreat on the first evening we learn in Eva Hanson's lecture that those massages actually never were a part of tantric philosophy and spiritual...

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On Being Unenthusiastic About Enthusiastic Consent - New Zine by Beata
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On Being Unenthusiastic About Enthusiastic Consent - New Zine by Beata

Consent is a bit like magic - it turns what was previously forbidden into something allowed of even desired! But how can we know that the consent given is valid - real! - consent?
Progressive sexpositive education at times outlines the parameters of good valid consent by using the acronym...

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Calling A Sex-Positive Community, Group or Event a "Family" - And Why It Is A Red Flag - New Zine by Beata
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Calling A Sex-Positive Community, Group or Event a "Family" - And Why It Is A Red Flag - New Zine by Beata

In the many years we have been visiting or a part of different sex-positive scenes there has been a common word that made our whole bodies cringe and feel alarmed. It's family. Fa-mi-ly. It's supposed to sound nice, no? It gives a comforting sense of community. It's just a harmless way to sprinkle good vibes. To generate camaraderie. To let you know: You are welcome! You are a part of us! Gooblegubble One of us!...

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But I'm a Creep. A Lab report.
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But I'm a Creep. A Lab report.

This text warmly wishes to accompany you before or after attending our workshop: ON CREEPY OLD MXN & BEYOND - & playSPACE, Saturday, 18.12.2021, at serrat(u)s bodywork in Zürich. - - "How about I follow you around all day tomorrow?" - "But then I would know that... Maybe you could hire somebody I don't know to follow me around in secret like a stalker?" - "Oh, that's a good idea!" - Two people plot how to get to that feeling that sends cold shivers down your spine. Because something feels off, even if nothing clearly dangerous is happening. They are surrounded by a whole group of people who are compiling some sort of curiosity cabinet of such weird ideas. One person is thinking of designing jewelry out of clipped toenails, while another one wants to take up a creepy passion for a private collection: to secretely cut off a lock of hair from each of her lovers and catalog them. One woman kneads pizza dough to put on her face as a grotesque mask, because she was deemed too young and pretty to trigger this specific...

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As many rules as necessary, as few as possible. The traps of deregulated sex positive spaces with a focus on gender inequality
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As many rules as necessary, as few as possible. The traps of deregulated sex positive spaces with a focus on gender inequality

We are happy that we got the permission to publish our friend's Anna Mense's text that was first printed in the Journal of Positive Sexuality. Abstract: In order to explain suffering in contemporary romantic relationships, Eva Illouz (2012) looks at the consequences of the detachment of erotic and romantic encounters from committed relationships such as marriage. While this detachment is often referred to as a triumph of free choice and liberal loving, Illouz argues that it causes systemic inequalities between male and female agents. The article takes Illouz's analysis as an incentive and a basis to study deregulated sex-positive spaces with regards to their risk to involuntarily reproduce features of socio-political domination. The discussion is driven by an interest in the question how options to explore sexual and romantic relationships can be developed without reproducing systemic disadvantages of heteronormative culture.

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How can you actually play in so-called sex-positive spaces and is it actually about sex or not actually about something else, but what do you call it?
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How can you actually play in so-called sex-positive spaces and is it actually about sex or not actually about something else, but what do you call it?

While walking with a friend, we talk about my perception and experience of the so-called sex-positive spaces - out of her open curiosity, as she has not yet experienced these spaces first-hand. I start by describing a bit of the 'infrastructure': how it all started for me in the first place, how I first stumbled into a workshop by chance at a dance school where ropes and floggers were also used, how I then met Schwelle7 and Matís, whom I told about writing my master's thesis on Shibari and who then recruited me as an assistant for a bondage course in no time at all. Finally, the more difficult part, trying to describe what interests me about the rooms in the first place. I mention the classics that many people in the "scene" report about. How liberating it is to let people...

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Cookie Consent
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Cookie Consent

Guys! We are all working diligently on a culture of consent by reminding each other in workshops and beyond that we don't take physical affection for granted; that we don't just assume anything about what the other person wants; that we respect personal boundaries and support each other in finding out, in a self-determined and collaborative process, what we want to do naughty things together; that we can move into surrender above all when we create safe spaces of trust; that a "no" is not a drama but a valuable hint for navigating the love zone and so on. This is all a huge project, a humanistic education project if you will, because there is much more at stake here than simply securing yourself in a legal contract-like manner when you become intimate together in order to arm yourself against accusations of assault. This is much more about deconstructing paternalistic structures, about new self and world relations! It's about learning to respect each other, to respect others and...

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Intimate Interviews Part II
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Intimate Interviews Part II

Last year, we had the pleasure of conducting interviews with lovely and talented people about everything that concerns us in our work. To do this, we first pampered our interviewees with a bodywork session of their choice so that we could get into conversation with each other in a well-blooded way. We had prepared many questions and they came up again and again, while others arose spontaneously. So the conversations usually started with a free association on the topic of "sex" - just say the first thing that comes to mind without thinking. And towards the end, it was usually about which workshops on creative intimacy they would specifically like to see. What emerged between us and was put into words are pieces of gold for me! Here is the second transcribed interview!

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Video interview by the Goethe-Institut China with Beata on "Pornography & Society"
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Video interview by the Goethe-Institut China with Beata on "Pornography & Society"

What materials can be used to trace the elusive nature of sexuality? How are our bodies and their desires entangled in power relations - how to deal with them? Alone or with others? Publicly or privately? By emphasizing the beautiful or the difficult sides? With play or seriousness? Being sweet or being angry? Do you even have to decide - and why is it always so much about deciding "This is good and this is bad!" when it comes to sexual matters? Silvan Hagenbrock, online editor of the Goethe-Institut China, spoke to Beata about her work and vision for the issue of the online magazine "yì" focusing on "Pornography and Society".
Watch the video here.

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The inner playground. An audio journey by Tim Holland
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The inner playground. An audio journey by Tim Holland

All the workshops and sessions and dirty playgrounds are places we visit because we want to experience ourselves differently, to encounter others, to become others. Transformation, change, becoming other, becoming close, metamorphoses, turning inside out, turning outside in, being turned inside out, being lifted somewhere else, going through the ceiling and deep into the earth, wondering, marveling, being surprised and touched by the unknown and the un/known, everything in, everything out, inventing the un/heard, sensing, approaching, circling around, trying, tempting. But all the workshops and sessions and games are not accessible to us right now, pause, lockdown, retreat, distance. I therefore recommend for all those who still want to experience physical sensations with "Huiuiuiuiuiuiui!" feelings, this fine guide to "becoming an alien" by my dear and talented friend Tim, which will make you feel completely different... To do this, it's best to go to an undisturbed place with headphones, press play and follow the instructions...

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Daniela Reina Téllez On The Power Of Workshops And Circles
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Daniela Reina Téllez On The Power Of Workshops And Circles

Daniela moves "in the fields of experimental art and somatic work" and explores "the political, ecological, activist possibilities of workshops and body practices as artistic practices". What happiness and joy to meet this beautiful person at the Touch & Play festival! I was touched by her post on social media, where the script of her talk below was shared, with the words: "(...) Fellow and dear facilitaros and circle-holders: Thank you for the work you do ❤ Let's keep gatherings and circles alive, especially now; being virtual, outside, with distance, with safe(r) measures... Let's keep them and us alive!" And thank YOU for the work you do, Daniela! I hope that reading about her artistic career and her homage to workshops, gatherings, sessions and circles reaches and enriches many people. Because course and body work is immensely important, strangely enough sometimes ridiculed, yet it is one of the most meaningful events and creations that I have been able to experience and create in this life. Therefore - here we go...

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Sex /vs./&/?/ Violence. Attempt at a conceptual delimitation on the basis of demarcation
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Sex /vs./&/?/ Violence. Attempt at a conceptual delimitation on the basis of demarcation

"What is sex?" we asked in a discussion round during Xplore. Anna Natt and Matís invited us to break down this impossible question: "How do you use the word sex?", "How do you do sex?" and "How do you know you had sex?" One participant explained that he was attending this discussion group because he thought it would be a good idea to hear what "sex" means to the participants at a sex-positive event. Community = shared language. Makes sense. But after the first round, it becomes clear that "sex" means something different to everyone. And yet it would be too easy to stop at private language and pseudo-enlightened "Everyone sees it differently, everyone is right, no one is right. Namaste." Surely we can find good arguments for common denominators in order to agree on convincing conceptual limitations. The answers to the questions vary between references to certain...

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