My First Time

This account was written by a participant following the FLINTA* orgy at Ewaldshof. “I was immediately curious when I heard about it. And of course, I felt a certain amount of hesitation: What will I encounter? What will be expected of me? How open am I really? How much physical intimacy can I even allow with people I don’t know? How much nudity, for that matter? Am I actually totally uptight? Am I slowly getting too old for this kind of thing?”

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April 2025
- April 19, 2025 Somatic Disembodiment – Or: How do I figure out what I want (and that it’s what I don’t want)? Or: My favorite workshops are workshops that turn workshops upside down April 19, 2025
February 2025
- Feb. 10, 2025 On the "tradition" of Tantra Massage (OR Eva says it best) Feb. 10, 2025
October 2024
- Oct. 24, 2024 My First Time Oct. 24, 2024
- Oct. 21, 2024 I'm sorry about the sex Oct. 21, 2024
August 2023
- Aug. 22, 2023 Devouring, Digestion, and Kokoreç Aug. 22, 2023
July 2023
- July 3, 2023 "I do wonder: Why am I putting people through this?" July 3, 2023
April 2023
- April 22, 2023 Workshop on Sexuality. Part I April 22, 2023
- April 21, 2023 Workshop on Sexuality. Part II April 21, 2023
- April 20, 2023 Workshop on Sexuality. Part III April 20, 2023
- April 19, 2023 Workshop on Sexuality. Part IV April 19, 2023
August 2022
- Aug. 23, 2022 Tantric Massage: Decluttering, Recluttering & Beyond – A TWAPOS experience Aug. 23, 2022
July 2022
- July 30, 2022 Salt With a Pinch of Tantra July 30, 2022
- July 21, 2022 On Being Unenthusiastic About Enthusiastic Consent – New Zine by Beate Absalon July 21, 2022
January 2022
- Jan. 11, 2022 Calling a Sex-Positive Community, Group, or Event a “Family”—And Why It Is a Red Flag—New Zine by Beata Jan. 11, 2022
December 2021
- Dec. 1, 2021 But I'm a Creep. A Lab Report. Dec. 1, 2021
October 2021
- Oct. 16, 2021 As many rules as necessary, as few as possible. The pitfalls of deregulated sex-positive spaces with a focus on gender inequality Oct. 16, 2021
September 2021
- Sept. 8, 2021 How exactly can you still play in so-called sex-positive spaces, and is it really about sex, or is it actually about something else—but what do you call that? Sept. 8, 2021
April 2021
- April 10, 2021 Cookie Consent April 10, 2021
January 2021
- Jan. 2, 2021 Self-help zine for the time AFTER an exciting workshop Jan. 2, 2021
December 2020
- Dec. 31, 2020 Intimate Interviews Part II Dec. 31, 2020
- Dec. 22, 2020 Goethe-Institut China video interview with Beata on “Pornography & Society” Dec. 22, 2020
November 2020
- Nov. 11, 2020 The Inner Playground. An audio journey by Tim Holland Nov. 11, 2020
October 2020
- Oct. 29, 2020 Daniela Reina Téllez on the Power of Workshops and Circles Oct. 29, 2020
- Oct. 20, 2020 Sex /vs./&/?/ Violence. An Attempt at Conceptual Delimitation through Demarcation Oct. 20, 2020
September 2020
- Sept. 18, 2020 Testimonial for our workshop “Trial & Eros” by Claire Sept. 18, 2020
August 2020
- Aug. 6, 2020 “Sex & Food” – Beata in a podcast conversation with Nicole Siller Aug. 6, 2020
June 2020
- June 23, 2020 Intimate Interviews Part I – The Connection Between Art and Desire and a Workshop Request Show June 23, 2020
- June 15, 2020 Lonely Surfaces – Sexual Enhancement on the Touchscreen June 15, 2020
May 2020
- May 3, 2020 Sexual Moralism – Compulsory Sex – Sex Positivity – Sex Negativity May 3, 2020
March 2020
- March 18, 2020 Inspiring Restraint – Not Just in Japanese. Cultural-Historical Connections to Bondage March 18, 2020
February 2020
- Feb. 24, 2020 Clauses: A Self-Reflection Feb. 24, 2020
January 2020
- Jan. 15, 2020 Beyond ‘sex-positive’ and ‘sex-negative’ Jan. 15, 2020
November 2019
- Nov. 27, 2019 Deguiltification – An Experiential Essay by Chris Ifso Nov. 27, 2019
- Nov. 10, 2019 Forensic Sexualities. Some Thoughts on Shame Nov. 10, 2019
September 2019
- Sept. 25, 2019 “Look What Marketing’s Done to My Body” – On the Pressure of (Not-So) Creative Self-Promotion Sept. 25, 2019
July 2019
- July 9, 2019 An Eclectic Essay on (In)security (work in progress) July 9, 2019
June 2019
- June 24, 2019 On Wellness and Exorcism: An Essay on What Makes a Session Valuable June 24, 2019
April 2019
- April 28, 2019 The Ropes That Mean The World. Reflections on the EURIX – Rope Artist Intl. Performances Spring 2019 April 28, 2019
- April 6, 2019 “Always this gross sex.” On reading the reviews of Jan Bonny’s ‘Wintermärchen’ April 6, 2019
March 2019
- March 27, 2019 A mixed bag, please! Definitional difficulties March 27, 2019
- March 20, 2019 Enduring the Unconventional: Reflections After a Workshop March 20, 2019
July 2018
- July 10, 2018 Some Thoughts on the Empowering Sensual Objectifications in Contact Improvisation July 10, 2018

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